When I was on my way to the gym this past week I saw a mother carrying her baby in a carrier which faced front. The baby could see exactly where it was going. When I saw this I was quickly reminded of my time in Mozambique. I went with a few other people to a Mama’s house. The Mama had a young son. When she started preparing the meal that we were about to share together, she handed me her son to hold. As I was holding him, he began to get heavy and I started shifting him around. I thought that he might like to see what was going on around him, just as the baby I described earlier. As soon as I put him into an outward facing position, he began to cry. The Mama came over to me and using fabric, placed him on my back. He immediately settled down and I carried him around for awhile.
As I look back at this day I am reminded of another vision I had. In this vision I was on a playground sitting in Papa God’s lap. I looked up and saw others having fun. I would see them look back at Papa every so often. I could tell they were having fun and wanted Papa to see what they were doing. After seeing that I put my head back on His chest, sitting in His love and pouring my love out on Him. There is a difference between the positions of the two babies I described. The first one reminds me of those on the playground in my vision while the second is the position I was in. As I have been learning more about rest and abiding, I have realized the more in love with Jesus I become, my heart position moves from playing on His playground to sitting in His lap while on the playground.
I have said for a few years that I love playing with Papa God on His playground. By that I mean, as I go out in the community and pray for others, I’m playing on His playground. As I went I had fun doing what He told me to do. I would say at the time I was like the others in the vision, I knew He was there with me and loved watching me ‘play’.
But as my relationship changed and I have fallen more in love, when I go out on His playground, my heart position is that of me sitting in His lap and resting in Him. In this position, everything else but Him fades away or becomes unimportant. Fear has no hold on me and I walk in confidence knowing who I am in Christ and Whose I am. There is peace in this position of Rest and Abiding. There are times when I realize I’m not in that position and will stop, quickly picturing myself back in His lap.
Papa God loves you so much! As you fix your eyes upon Jesus and fall more in love with Him, you will begin to see the depths of His love for you. He wants you to know that you are not alone, even though at times it may feel that way. His love will never fail you. He does not take His love back from you. He loves you unconditionally. And I believe He wants everything that you do to flow out of His love, from the position of resting or abiding in His wonderful extravagant love.
Keep Falling More in Love With Jesus!